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last letter

hope's everything went well. you havent visited your friendster,,, and havent deleted our pics... somehow it made me glad... sorry i did found out that your already married. oct 1? with ramil... dunno if it was just a joke... but did hurted me pretty badly. anyway hinde naman yun yung gs2 kong sabhin... few hours from now and it will be your birthday.. sabe nila its lucky daw. 10.10.10 my cousin gonna get married on that day pala. and my mom's living next march, me? I just brought ton of stuff with what I was trying to save for us dati, been enjoying photography, was able to buy a dslr camera pero nikon D3000 lang, wanted the new released the d90... pero it was too much for my budget... been spending time going out to restaurant I wanted to take you before... but was not able to do cause of the money I was really trying to crawl up for the near future, i guessed i planned it too much... was able to use some of the money to fixed my room... and have some capital to push the baking hobby im profiting every year... si ate Liza, yung kapitbahay namen before sa letter B? yung umalis dahil nakabili ng lupa? bumalik sila.. pero asa unit D na sila ngayun, and i was able to convinced her to be my partner... yungd ating anak nya is already 16 years old... wow.. ang bilis ng oras,,,




para kong tanga... nakkipagusap sa email mo... haha its the only way i can say this things without getting scared or pissed off or desperate, somehow the time stopped in this account you never visited. I'm keeping a blog pala... somehow it releases my thoughts... im actually pretty mad at you... and the rest of the female blood... before I can easilt respect them... right now... i really feel we are all equal na... honestly.. I dont owe them anything... they deserve anything the world will give to them... may it be happiness or sadness... I shouldn't care na lang.



wow... i never thought we will be another what if... haha i never thought we will be another past... anyway.. like you said. if you meet new people... they inspires you to change... i guess i did change... I never thought I can hate this much. . .



I dont hate you... but i know i feel like hating every women i see.. haha i rmemeber before lage akong tumatayu sa LRT whenever may makita akong babae, even thou pagod na ako, i wont mind... ill happily stand... but right now... honestly,,, i can look at them in the eye and just sit there... well except talaga if i see that they are on a worst possible condition... im not heartless...



feels really weird hating women this match. doesn't even feels right.



sooner or later.. ill probably find a new girlfriend... still hoping somehow, but right now, I really dont have anything Im inspired on doing... just crossing out some checklist of things I wanted to make... hope ill pass my board exam next year so I can cross that off my list, still need to loose a lot of weight... oh yeah... I should get my license and visa&passport ready.



4 years... :) I guess what we had was nt that much to you...



I thought it was worth protecting rather than my dreams... haha i guess it was'nt, I cant even feel it anymore... the passion of having a dream... neither the anticipation of succeeding a plan.. I guess this is good to. my mom said in 5 years time... my green card will be given to me. ill start a new life after 5 years. . . right now. ill try to patch things up.



2 hours and 30 minutes... your going to have the luckiest birthday of your life. . . :) hahaha and I'm not part of it . We never had a chance to properly end our past... i guess this last letter will be mine.



I wont visit this site for awhile... next time I visit...



I hope we would be able to just talk... until this memorry fades... I dont think I could..



happy birthday kim.





i miss you







i love you...



bye...

A hole and a Well

run...

run away...

run away...

a neglected dog barking its feelings toward an unfamiliar face....

BANG!!

a wood slammed to the dogs mouth....


breaking his jaw...


throwing him off his four feet...


bleeding in his mouth that he cannot close anymore...


his tongue loose off his mouth... dripping off the bloody spit of life he has left...


he struggled to stand....

he pushes to be stronger...


he stared to whats left of the world he can only see..

crying his eyes out so he can speak out what he wanted to say...

with his broken jaw... and a lifeless tongue he shouted a loud cry...


but the only sound left was the air coming out of his lungs...

through his neck... out of his mouth...


again he cried for the pain ...


again he cried for hope...


again he tried to shout...

BANG!!

another hit from a unfamiliar man...


now with his feet....

BANG!!

now with his body...



again.. he cried,,,



again... he tried...

in his last cry... he stare at the face of the man...




an eye with nothing but his own desire...
an eye who is passionate for his own happiness...
an eye who is willing to sacrifice anything for his own...
an eye that blames everything around him except himself...

nothing...